It is funny how most things I end up liking are
related to food or anything that goes into my mouth. Yet again, I have found something
that I really like and would recommend to people coming to this side of the
world at this particular time. Burčák (pronounced बुर्चाक)
.
It is something that is in the process of becoming wine. I doubt there are many
like me who prefer their drinks to be sweet but if by some accident of fate you
do belong to this category you will simply love the sweetness yet the stinging sourness
of the drink. The interesting thing is, it is a very healthy drink and as the
locals say, over this period of when it is produced and sold you should have as
many litres of burčák as the number of litres of blood in your body! So there,
I am- one down and four to go :D
Autumn is supposed to have arrived early this year. For
a Mumbaikar living here, it is really cold, you know. But I cannot begin to
describe how much I am loving this weather- my favorite part is being able to
wear fancy coats and knee-high boots which a majority of us Indians have only
seen in movies. Probably I like this weather more because this is exactly (or a
little bit colder) than Mumbai winters and don’t we just love our Mumbai
winters? Yes, I keep going back to my Mumbai memories all the time. There is
something about that city. Or probably it is that I am trying to hold on to or
rather find something that I am familiar and comfortable with. And I found one
such thing here that at the end of last week. Something strange, the Holy
Spirit if you may want to believe, led me to a Catholic Church on Friday
evening. I felt I needed to do some field work here considering I am studying
Indian Christianity- therefore needed insights on European Christianity. The
Mass was in Czech so I got several minutes to plan many many mundane things
that I wanted to do in the forthcoming week. As my eyes wandered all over the
place one image caught and arrested my attention. It was an image of Mother
Mary. The first I saw in my stay here so far.
It has been
more than a month since I came to Pardubice. There are plenty of new things I have
learnt about myself after coming here. Of course that is helped by my roommate/
friend who picks on every thought or word that I utter and makes me think about
it. Yeah, it leads to bickering of all sorts at every possible moment but the
exploration of these thoughts, needless to say is very useful. So that evening
I was inspired to think why this religious image was inducing in me a
non-religious feeling of being comforted at the mere sight of it. It was definitely
not some holy and pious sentiment that made me feel so. I waited for mass to
get over so that I could follow people into doing what I assumed they did in
Church in India after mass which is go to all these small alters and kiss the
feet or touch the feet of the statue or the photo. Nothing of that sort
happened. People slowly walked out while some remained. I waited for the Church
to get empty so that I could do it in peace and solitude and not get stared at for
being a heathen Christian who had come from a god forsaken part of the world
doing ungodly things in Church.
You see, for me and many of my family and friends, going
to Church is seen as a thing you do- not out of religious sentiment (of course
that is involved too) but simply because it is something you have always done
and will keep doing. So where non-religious sentiments are involved, how could
I refrain from doing one simple thing that I had practiced ever since I was a
little girl whether or not I cared about God? How could I walk out of Church
without kissing the altar of Mother Mary? Anyway, I did precisely that and
walked out of Church with the feeling that I did what I was supposed to do.
The whole situation made me think of what we Indian
Christians had made out of Christianity. Are we the children of what the
colonials once called Heathens? Yes. Are we Christians? Yes. Do we have the
faith? Yes. Is our understanding of our faith anything close to what a
missionary in the seventeenth century would have wanted it to be? No. Will a
twenty first century European be able to make sense of our faith? No. These
questions do not make any collective sense, do they?
Calling going to Church that Friday evening “fieldwork”
was meant to be a joke when I initially thought of it. For months I had been
studying Indian Christianity theoretically and seeing its practical
applications in the Indian context. But that one evening in Church is where I
had my first brush with the world of difference between what Christianity is
and what I as an Indian see and practice Christianity.
4 comments:
hmmm....interesting! Though, in my personal opinion, mingling the church-going experience with non-religious/religious sentiments dilutes ones experience.
Glad to see another Catholic have similar thoughts. I've had my issues with our practice of 'thottumutthal' in church and have refrained from doing this since college. But I still spent hours defending this against then bf-now husband (non-Catholic), who thinks all Catholics are heathens.
What exactly is your PhD on, again? I always assumed it is something to do with English Lit, but this sounds ultra-interesting!
But did you feel unsettled when you didn't do it ? Go upto the altar I mean?
@Jane: It is one's Church-going experience (which if you think deeper into is non-religious) that enriches one's religious experience. You may as well sit at home and believe that God listens to you at home as well as in Church.
@Kritika: I did go up to the altar and I did feel settles after that
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